As a victim of Childhood Sexual Abuse, I tend to let my emotions (mostly anger) steer me towards the daily blur of real life before I quickly run away with a bottle of vodka and copious amounts of drugs to calm my nerves and generally cope with each day.
I have the tv on in the background but it is usually ignored, often comedy although I will listen to the lies - er... news occasionally, apart from when the cat is feeling ignored and decides to rub herself against the screen until she builds up enough static to take a running jump at me and deliver a small electric shock - with Claws!
There are very few programs that can get me to hunt for the remote control. One of them is Big Brother. That s**t will guarantee I'm on my feet stripping the cushions off the couch if I have to, to find the remote and change channel! It is an illustration of humanity at its worst.
Humiliation, exploitation and degradation are words that seem not to figure in these peoples' vocabulary. They are told how badly to act, their existence on screen is at the whim of the production team and it seems to be only the ever-increasing demand for voyeuristic viewing by nations of people with so little in their own lives to occupy themselves with that keeps any reality show on air.
As some of you know, I recently separated from my partner of ten years.
Well, I started seeing somebody new last week and have been spending time at his house for the last few days as he has a dog that requires more human time than a violent cat with an attitude problem and a cat flap, returning home each day to spend some time with the cat so she doesn't feel as though both of her pet humans have just upped and moved out on her.
This continual transition has left me somewhat out of the loop as to various goings on in the "real world".
This morning, I finally got my laptop to connect to t'internet through my mobile to find 47 emails, three of which pointed to an alarming story, which I feel makes a mockery of the Police as a whole, never mind the police Operation to which it relates.
This ex-police officer should have his pension cut simply on grounds of bringing the force into disrepute.
He abandoned hundreds of victims just months into the biggest healing process of their lives.... And THEN sought minor fame off the back of it!
These actions alone, in my mind, make this man a paedophile enabler at the very least. Rather than hunt down and stop these predators, he seeks to make a name for himself basking in the perceived successes of the investigation team currently in place under Operation Yewtree.
My last words on this matter.....
This man is the antithesis of Crime Prevention!
Senior police officer investigating Jimmy Savile sex abuse scandal to appear on BIG BROTHER after quitting role in Operation Yewtree
- Unnamed officer was an expert on child abuse but left Met last month
- Detective in team of 30 officers hunting attackers after Savile scandal
- Reportedly told producers Yewtree was 'upsetting' and 'draining'
A senior police officer who has been working on Operation Yewtree - the investigation launched following the Jimmy Savile sex abuse scandal - is entering the Big Brother house.
It is unclear if the high-ranking detective, who quit his job last month, applied to be a contestant on the reality TV show while working for the Metropolitan Police.
Until recently, he had been hunting celebrities who may also have carried out sex attacks, either with the help of paedophile Savile or working alone.
Bosses at Scotland Yard are said to be furious at his decision to seek celebrity status on the back of Britain's biggest sexual abuse investigation.
Arrested stars include Jim Davidson, Rolf Harris, DJ Dave Lee Travis, Freddie Starr, and Gary Glitter. They all deny the allegations.
Big Brother 2013 launches tonight on Channel 5 with a 'secrets and lies' theme, which includes a prison inside the house.
His decision to become a reality star will shock Scotland Yard and producers have said the child abuse expert has told them how life working on Yewtree and its 400 lines of inquiry was 'upsetting' and 'draining'.
MailOnline understands he will enter the house on Friday night.
A show insider said the officer knows the confidential nature of his work but understands 'it is only natural' that other contestants will try to get 'as much gossip as possible' about the investigation.
Concerns: A Scotland Yard child abuse detective who worked on Operation Yewtree will enter the Big Brother House, probably on Friday
Revealed: The officer will be inside the new Big Brother house (pictured), which has been unveiled as producers gear up for this summer's new series
The man, who will be unmasked this evening, also spoke about the hours he spent sifting through evidence linked to Savile's decades of sexual abuse.
He also said he worked in a specialist team of 30 officers and was pleased they had been able to make a difference to victims.
'The housemate knows they are going to hit the headlines over this. Leaving the police force to go into the Big Brother house is a massive move,' a show insider told the Daily Star.
'Their former bosses are going to be shocked about their decision to join the show and naturally will be worried about what might be said inside the house.
'This person has seen a lot of bad things while working on Operation Yewtree. They will know what can and can’t be said inside the house but it’s only natural for their housemates to want to try to get as much gossip as possible.'
New pictures released this week reveaed the house the new set of contestants will live in for the duration of this year's show.
Not only have producers added an outdoor shower, no doubt in the hope to get some steamy viewing action, but they've also included a snug treehouse in the garden.
Suspects: PR guru Max Clifford, left, and comedian Jim Davidson, right, are among those arrested in the Operation
Arrests: Comedian Jimmy Tarbuck and Australian entertainer Rolf Harris have also been held by Yewtree
Its addition is no doubt put in place in a bid to encourage housemates to get some privacy away from the main building.
Other features include an outside shower, a 'prison' for any bad behaving contestants and an electricity generating bike in the bedroom.
